May 17, 2015
A Break from Caffeine and Alcohol
One of the best things about growing older, is realizing that when you want to improve yourself or change yourself in any way, it doesn’t have to be permanent.
I’ve seen myself go through so many changes only to change back again. That’s the beauty of self improvement, it is a constant experiment to see what works and what makes you happy. Nothing is forever.
In the recent weeks, I have had many alcohol-related incidences that have caused uncomfortable and sometimes scary situations. None of these have been while I was drinking personally, but rather while witnessing the effects of alcohol on others. Yet Friday afternoon, when my work with a client ended after only half a day (shout out to the dream team of unpacking) I found myself home with no plans at 2pm and I desperately wanted a bottle of wine.
I enjoy the calm and relaxation that wine provides and I found myself having an inner conflict about it. Is it hypocritical to want the people close to me in my life to stop drinking altogether, yet to indulge in alcohol whenever I want it? Of course I knew the answer to that, so despite many discussions about it in my head, I chose to refrain.
In the morning, I woke up and decided not to have a coffee. I had gotten a ton of sleep the night before and didn’t think I needed one. That’s when the lack-of-caffeine headache settled in. I had never had one of those before, but I had heard about them many times from others who had tried to stop drinking coffee.
Coffee is one thing I have gone back and forth about in my life. When I was in my early twenties, I said I didn’t want to have a cup of coffee every day because then I would need it and one cup would become two which would become three and in my older adult life I would be having a pot a day. In my mid twenties, I fell in love with coffee. Now, at 29, I drink a black coffee every morning and find myself needing another one at around 2pm. Coffee not only wakes me up and makes me more alert, but it also makes me happy. My mood can be instantly shifted with caffeine.
It is interesting to have noticed my physical and mental dependence on both alcohol and caffeine in the same weekend. So, my goal for the month ahead is to limit my fluid intake to water, juice and smoothies.
I know that things are usually easier to give up when something else replaces them. For coffee, I would like to write in my gratitude journal all of the things that make me happy, this always has an instant way of making me feel happy from the inside out. For wine, I would like to color in my new adult coloring book at night, it is very relaxing and calms my mind.
Even though the next few days (weeks) are sure to present their challenges with this, I am excited to see what the future holds! I know nothing is permanent and I don’t know how I will feel about this decision in a few months, but for now I am excited to embark on a more healthy life journey ☺